Rubies and Strawberries.

Soul dissolved into the dark,
Atrociously shameful walk,
with cold feet.
no hallow no light,
but,
my skin has diamond shine.

I feel acute ache..
A pain of different kind.
Then,
I remember tonight,
I chose the bed of thorns,
from the moment I've made you mine...

Distressed expression,
Speaking the truth.
Because I forget to lie,
Because I forget to smile...

Now I have learned,
But my eyes have been burned,
With Anonymous agony.
I have deserved this fall,
On this 4th of July,
No one gonna believe my answer to why,
Why I have crossed the line...

Take a deep look,
You can still find only,
Blood n fire,
Only red Stitches.
And yellow flowers.
Clearer the sight,
More blur vision.
So I can't see the path,
Which leads to heaven.
Which leads to you....

And my senses are lost.
I have lost everything,
Everything I have ever got....

Mother,
have you ever listened ?
what father said ?
whatever said by neighbour,
Relatives,
Leaders,
Religions,
Nation,
Sartre n Saints...?

I am going to end this list.
I have my own Words,Beats,Rhymes and Rhythms..
I have no gun, no weapons,
no bullet, no car.
Neither I'm from Istanbul, Turkey nor
from Tokyo, Japan...
But I'll going to hit.
All the beauties n the beasts,
Criminals in mask,
Hidden In the forest of white sharks.
With their crew and cast,
Sooner or Later,
Not Now But,
At last.

I will yes I will,
this is me,
this is who I am,
accept me as you will,
I wont change as you will.

No fear no funk,
Only a few memories of past,
reminding me,
I have slept with you two nights.
But casanova you are,
And I Pretended I am a rock.
I am a stone,I am cold.
that its all fine.
Why ???
Beautifully said deceitful line.
But That doesn't matter,
we both had good time...

Nothing lost,Nothing found,
but feeling more empty...
more pain with more wound.

you are the prince of my fairy tale,
but the fairy tale
that I once knew is gone.
I left with,
Droughty heart n dry eyes,
No more able to wailing,
sense the end from your side.
But did anything really start ?
So
No more hello No more hi.
Not even you say Goodbye...

Time for my last tear to fall,
Because,
Yesterday was my birthday,
He didn't even call.
So,I'll change everything,
From now on...


I am born to burn.
All the Worlds,
Earths,
Heavens,
Stars and Suns.

I'll catch the light,
Then serve it to everybody's plate.
So we all can love
No fight No hate...

I am the Illusionist,
I can make you wonder.
with the Magic I crate.

why death is so beautiful,
why she always gravitates,
why I think of her,
every now and then.
But No, I'm not 27 yet.
No, I'm not famous enough.
laughing out loud,
don't you understand ?
The joke I've cracked.


The whole world is fake ,
Ort of fame, intoxicate.
I make,
I break,
all the rules of this game.
I am the rock star.
I love this fucking flame.

See my name in Vegas,
New York, Paris and LA.


All the crimes I've committed ,
And all my mysterious mistakes.
But I don't know any remorse,
I don't feel any regret.

They call me Ice Queen,
cold, mean and minx.
no crux,no respect.
They Call me arrogant,
I know what I am doing,
what if its not perfectly legitimate.
but nothing demean my pride,
nothing can humiliate...
My doors are closed.
No window No hole in my home.
I am alone in my womb.
Safely untouched,
Far from more scars and broken hearts
Far from lust and lies...
Far from painful cries...

But
You can Come,
I have opened the Door,
I'll show you all sides of me.
Come,
I'll give you my best...
I'll give you everything I have...
I have opened the Door.
Come,
I'll give you my heart.
and some
Rubies and Strawberries...
And one extra bite of my chocolate,
and my ice cream..

I have opened the Door,
Come,
I'll make your life heaven...
And if you won't,
Then
I'll make you famous...<3

Seldom Love

I'll write until I die.
After me,
Only my poems Remain for the world to remind.
My craving for revive..
Shine emerging ray of my divine...
my efforts for survive...
my words,my thoughts and my rhymes...

All the years I endure..
Feel nothing but tears,fears and holes....
I wear,
Abysmal agonizing soul..
The search should be stop..
Already,
Waive all wishes,dreams and hope,
Dilate and prolong..
Wait of unknown...

In the end It reveals,
The truth,
The reason,
Behind..
My wistful weep...
To my Precious grief....

I tried with all my might,
wisdom, will and bosom..

With map and GPS day and night,
Since the day I was born,
run,burn and fight,
Hopeless eyes still looking for home.

No way to escape,
Windows and doors are closed.

All I got was seldom love..
For a day or two,
No, Its not enough..
Where is my Laugh ?
Where is my life ?
Alone,How long ?
Wounds are new but blunt,
In deep yes it hurts..



I am scared...
I am alone...
I am singing with the song...
In a very high tone...
It was obvious,once I told,
This pain can not be cured..
So,
Its the time to meet my Lord...

Lustful Lies

No love only lust,
But,
Now I know At least.
I am just a dessert in man's feast..
Topped with smile,
Decorated eyes.

All treated me,
As a piece of meat.
At the end,
They only want to eat.

Hungry wolves.
Some are sharp and some are fools.
But one thing they all share,
They tempt us by showing,
How much they care.
Or some time,
Without any effort,
They make you fall.

They talk about heavens,
But its not what it seems.
Without any undertaking,
They trap you in daydream.

They take everything,
while Showing you receme.
No one can hear,
your silent scream.

No love No vow,
And you just wonder how...
You left with an empty
heart...
Blaming yourself,
For other's slough.

sitting under cascao.
With sadness and scars,
with some bottles and glass.
with a book of true and false.
In bloodstream..
you are stoned and alone.
Numb,
questioning the whole.

Don't cry over lustful lies.
Wipe your tears away,
Its true,
Yes, Its true.
Men are incapable of love.
They fear to confront.
They fear to get hurt.
so,
They fear to open the doors,
they fear to feel the storm.
The worst part is,
they know in the end,
they will get one for sure.

So they think its not a sin.
They are playing with,
What they have win.
They don't want to settle down.
Even though they feel the warmth.
They still don't hold your hand.
Because they know,
After they have done with you,
They will get bored and
Again hunt for more ..

They are the drivers of the fast lane,
You are his number ten.
Like lil wayne,
what if they want rest,
They don't give you their last name.

No fairytale n happily ever afters exist .
Soulful Drama is not in their list.
They are from west.
and you are from east.

you are the art.
And
They have soul of artist.

So don't cry over lustful lies.
Girl just get high and fly..
And,
Don't hate.
No prince going to save you from your fate.

No one is going to be your soul mate.
For you happy endings are not meant.
Leave the hope n take the dope.
Try and climb to the mountain top.
Time is fast.
moments are furious.
so book your slot.
In advance,
So you can get what you want.

Don't ask what,why n how.
There is no better tomorrow so live now

Sweet Surrender

So now,
I am giving you my heart,
In this lonely hour,
Sitting in the park.
Finally its only you and me ..
Looking at the stars..
Together...
We two will,
Become one in our sweet surrender...

Listening the song of snipe,
In this milky moonlite,
Your face,
Hmmm...
Making me mad..
Your eyes, Your lips..
How can we hold back to love,
When we lost in endless kiss..
Rain of love pouring bliss...
And you are the tear on my eyelite...
The happy one...
I will save it until you come.
Then I will cry,
Because I want your wings to fly,
With you,
Above the hight of the sky...

Night brings velvet melody within,hark!!
Spark of our love lightening the dark....
I am giving you my every bit.
My soul, my mind and My heart.
The finest,
The deepest,
The best of what I got,
True,
Selfless,
With some pleasure and scorn,
Undivided,
And naked,
As pure as the day I were born...

Now its your turn...
You can go with your own,
Or you can come with me,
Because,
I am giving you all the clue.
From the afterglow to morning dew...
I love you now and I will always do...

We will shine bright,
In the darkest night,
We will burn the ground..
We will be the fireworks in the sky..
We will,
Play with the thander .
Let them wonder,
We two will,
Become one in our sweet surrender... :)

Mother

Where were you,
When I was singing a song,
Where were you ,
When I forgot my lyrics...

Where were you when my tiny eyes cried for those little butter fly clips.

Where were you when I was screaming your name with silent lips.

Where were you when I saw a girl in the garden,
Wearing a pink parse,
trying to walk,
In the high heels of her mom,
And when she fell down,
Her mom was there to kiss her cheeks.
Where were you when I was screaming your name with silent lips...

Where were you when I got stuck in hopeless mess,
Where were you when In me,
Anger was the only emotion left.
Where were you when I wanted a happy family,
When I did not know, that it will become a Tragedy.

Where were you when every ballerina came with their moms wearing make up and all.
I were the one who was alone, with powder n Lip balm .
I wanted your lipstick,
I wanted your red scarf.
I was wearing only my cape,
So wanted you to dressed me,
and
I wanted you to be there in all my pics.
Where were you when I was screaming your name with silent lips.

I dreamt every night that
you are pampering me,
cuddling with me,
making me smile.
Then sudden,
Tears start rolling down,
Wet pillow and wet heart,
and all I feel in my life's plot,
Pain sorrow and heaviness of breath,
No one here to wipe them away.
Where were you when,
I was dealing with my disturbed asics.
Where were you when I was screaming your name with silent lips.

Where were you when I was tired of pity full eyes,
When I was fighting for my tries,
Where were you when I was all alone screwed n scared.
Where were you when I was distressed,clashed n crashed.
Where were you when I failed in civics.
Where were you when I was screaming your name with silent lips.

But I know in deep down,
You were always with me.
Like stars in the sky,
Like a wish ,
Like a pray,
Like a ray of hope ,
Dancing on the mountain top.
Like a blessing in hard time,
Like a light in dark night,
Like a scent of flower,
Unseen untouched.
But still I can feel.
My mother,
I know you are always with me...

Gambling

Self imposed exile,
From the weeping woe.
Heartbreak heartache,
Trust love and lies...
Down the deepest desire,
Which is hard to acquire.

My heartless adamantine.
what is your silent admire ??
Love or lust??
So in search...
We can go to alabama or also LA will be fine.

escape from the territory
of ghost,wimp and blinds.
Go,
hunt for unknown,
leaves the world behind.

Thander kisses the dirt,
makes the light sound.

Sterility spike,
In crystal cries.
frozen and cold,
my gray stoned eyes.

Run to the end of the sun,
and you will become,
Dead in transient nights,

Death introduced herself,
what remains else,
only some bursting towers,
their soldiers fucking cowards,

Dim lights falling down,
Tomb become the town.

I am having a soul of clown.
wicked solitude sarcastic n loud,
hell empress gives me this crown.

Where is my home?
still roaming on the bleedy road,
chasing cars on highway.
Doors are closed ,
screaming souls,
crash them or open up,
get the sign of servive,

I can not discribe,
ponder dreams of mine.

so in search ..
we can go to alabama or also LA will be fine...

In my womb,
I am safe n sound,
i see through the window,
fire hugging the toon.
we are reaching to the stars,
but its to soon to see the blue moon,
its april 22,
so i am singing on saturday night,
song of love swan.
we will going to taste divine,
come my love,
and i will make you mine,
we will dance on the beats of romance and
we will drink red wine .
settle down and we make our sweet home.
so for that,
we can go to alabama,
or also LA will be fine...

Just you and I,
in garden of roses,
love blooms bright.
or you can choose to stay in my heart in my arms.
for forever..
or you can take me,
where ever you want.
and you can see into my eyes,
I want you to by my side,
when my 60's will arrive..
and I will love you.
until I die... <3

In the month of September

I will write
a sonnet to you someday.
only four lines
with three words...
one is hello
and one is love..
one I will tell you later...
In the month of September ...

I will try to put all.
all my Odes in one,
altogether.
all my love,
In one Epigram,
my eternal love,
we will read them later,
In the month of September...

I will make a riff ,
for you someday.
Hope you will listen
and fall in love with me,
the very next Sunday.
because you are the one,
I choose ,
To be my Muse,
for the rest of my life,
but I see veracity of ,
your fears and your lies,
I know You've been had,
All your tries and cries...

so only one more night,
I will make note slides,
In my mind,
and I will play them later,
In the month of September...

Down the dusky valley,
when cold breeze will kiss your lips,
when umbra will hug you,
and make you feel lonely,
just whisper my name,
Slightly slowly.
and I will come to you,
I leave everything behind...
and we will make love later,
In the month of September...

then I will go back to my grave,
and I'll paint a picture of you,
and put it on the wall beside my lord,
and with some Cigarettes and Whiskey,
I will sing the sonnet,
I wrote for you along with the riff.
and I will reminisce later,
in the month of September...

ye hi chah kyu chahe

yu hi kabhi,
kyu,
mere khawab,
chahe,
ek aasman..
udne ko kyu
do pankh udhar,
do din ke liye chahe...

parvaj kyu chahe,
koi panchan kyu chahe,
pyar kyu chahe,
chahe bhi to ,
yehi chah kyu chahe...

irade mere badle se,
kadam bahake se ,
nigahe dhundti si kuch,
jane kya dekhna chahe...

do din ki jindagi,
ek din gujar gaya,
ek din jo baki h,
jina tere sath kyu chahe...

sabar ye pagal,
dil krta nhi kyu h,
kismat se jayada,
khuda se yar kyu chahe...

aaj me jina jo,
shuru kiya kal se,
kal ki chizo ko,
ye aaj kyu chahe...

didar kyu chahe,
bisale yr kyu chahe,
aashiqi me diwana
apni har kyu chahe...

koi aahsas kyu chahe,
tujhme jajbat kyu chahe,
aadhure rahne wale,
sapne hajar kyu chahe...

tujhse ikkrar kyu chahe,
tujhse ijhar kyu chahe,
do pal ki khushi ke badle ,
dard ki sogat kyu chahe...

tere varga yar kyu chave,
saheba sa krar kive pave,
kuch v na m jani na m sochya ve tere uthhe dil
lagan to pahale,
dil lutna chave kyu,
te lutke tere isque ch
ruh te dil ,ek ek sas te
jindagi ch tera hi nam kyu chave...

"tere jaisa yr kyu chahe,
saheba sa karar kyu chahe,
tujhse dil lagane se pahale,
na kuch jani m na kuch socha,
dil lutna kyu chahe,
or lutke tere isque me,
rooh or dil, ek ek sas pe,
or jindagi me ,
tera hi nam kyu chahe.."
tujhe hi yar kyu chahe,
tera hi payar kyu chahe,
tera hi sath kyu chahe,
chahe bhi to ye hi,
chah kyu chahe........